This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album #4. The main character gets in trouble with her boyfriend, this time around, for staying up late cuz she has jet lag. That's when she snaps. All at once, she makes the realization of how stupid this whole situation is, havin' a boyfriend, who acts like he's got all this authority over her, a…

Okay, yes. Yes, indeed. If you've been following this podcast, then you're probably familiar with the Fucked Up Relationship Album. This is the book upon which said album is based. Indeed, if you've been following said Fucked Up Relationship Album, then you'll have seen excerpts from this wee little book. Here's the description on the back of the b…

This is the song I wrote in real life after the events depicted in the song I posted just now about the weed pulling and getting all un-depressed and stuff. It's like, all this new music came to me on that spring day, back in 2001, after my soul came back to me. Yeah, I went ahead and wrote and recorded this little ditty after the weed pulling and …

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. In this one, the main character goes to her folks' house for spring break, and for whatever reason, a miracle happens. She's sitting in the sun, pulling weeds with her mom, and they're just talking about regular stuff, including how fucked up the fucked up relationship is. Something…

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. The main character is working on her dissertation proposal, or I should say, she wants to work on it. It's due the next day. But her poopy boyfriend is keeping her on the phone, talking her ear off about boring stuff. She comes up with an idea she wants to get down, and she starts t…

This is a true story, and the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. It as the night before my dissertation proposal was due. I was workin' on it and thought I'd talk to mean controlling boyfriend dude for just a few minutes. Y'know. A goodnight call and all that. And he proceeded to talk my ear off.…

Here's the 5000th song about death. Death's on my mind; what can I say? It's on my mind.

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. It's about how when I auditioned for that play, I didn't tell my dumb boyfriend about it.

I was in a weird, reverie state last night, when I thought of the idea of conceptualizing the universe as being just one big fire. All the suns, which are hot, hot, hot balls of fire - those suns are the flames and sparkles that make up the giant fire that is the universe. And then, eventually, like all other fires, the giant fire, that is the univ…

This is sorta a reprise of an old song from the way-back machine, with a li'l rap added to it. I'm considering starting a new project (but haven't decided yet). If I do end up starting it, this'll be the little number that kicks it off.

This is another one of those existential songs. I was thinking about how when man is gone, all our buildings and stuff'll sink into the earth. Even art will disappear. Everything'll disappear. Even stuff that most of us would consider to be immortal, like the Mona Lisa, for example, will disappear. It'll all disappear. And, on top of that, every on…

Sorry about the duplicate song. Poopity poop. But I realized the rap I recorded last night was a disaster and I had to revise it. Here's the same song as yesterday (the next fucked up relationship song - about auditioning for a play), but with a new and improved rap-part.

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. The main character tells her friend about her depression (which is in response to the impending breakup with the mean boyfriend). Her friend tells her it might be good to do an extracurricular activity and stuff. She tells the main character about a play she was in the previous summ…

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. The boyfriend tells the main character what he wants her to do after she graduates. She wants her to work for him! He wants to be her boss again!

I decided to take the song from last night and soup it up, just a teeny tiny bit by adding another rap, in order to hold the listeners' interest. Did it hold it? Did it?

Here's the second version of the song I just posted. This one is more church-choir-y sounding than the first one.

This song came to me in a dream the other day. I decided, given the abstract nature of the dream lyrics, I'd make the song abstract, or abstract-ish. I think I sorta know what it's about, but at the same time, it could be about other things cuz it's kinda abstract.

I was writin' in my journal today, and the thought came to me that, every single second of our lives, we are in The Slow Tunnel of Death. From the moment of conception, we're headin' toward our deaths. So, I decided to write wee little ditty about it. Yes, it is not that often that I wrote songs about death. Nope, not that often at all. Nosiree.…

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. The main character, in anticipating breaking up with her controlling boyfriend, comes up with a master plan. See, he gave her an ultimatum a few years ago that if she smokes pot, he'll dump her. Now that she wants to break up with him, it'll be easier, to her thinking, cuz rather th…

This is just a wee little demo; I probably won't do much else, music-wise today, cuz I'm doin' social, and all that. There was a girl in a movie years ago, and I think she had Autism Spectrum disorder and she said that thing about "doin' social." That's just so you know I didn't make up that little phrase. I got it from a movie.…

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. It is the turning point song, in the sense that the main character, after a year and a half of not smoking weed, due to her boyfriend's prohibitions, decides to say "Fuck It!" and smoke the little teeny tiny nuggets of weed she found in the bottom of the box she used to keep it in.…

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. The main character is feelin' all sentimental about the days when she used to smoke pot, so she goes through the drawer where she used to keep her pot, in search of the little box she used to keep it in.

This is a song about a banjo from outer space that has come to save the planet. Once humans hear it playing, it'll change the vibrational frequencies of their souls. That's a good thing cuz because human spirits are all distorted beyond all recognition, stuck on the wrong frequency. Maybe once said vibrational frequencies get altered, maybe humans …

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. The main character realizes what she said she was missing in the previous song.

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. The main character realizes there's something missing from her life, something that's been missing for a good part of her relationship with her crappy boyfriend. But she can't remember what it is. What is that thing she's missing? What is it?????????????????…

Here's the slow, somber version of the song I just posted and stuff. Oh, yeah, I bastardized a song from last week to make this one. I dunno if that was a good idea or not.

I was in a group o' people, fighting against an evil housing development that promises to kill 3-4K oak trees. We lost. All I can do is try to pray those trees into Heaven.

This is my song in honor of it being 4/20/2024, that fun old weed-smoking holiday. It's a sequel of the song I did last weekend about smokin' weed in a church and bein' discovered by the priest there (Father O'Malley). In this song, the narrator and Father O'Malley smoke together.

This is the song that comes before the song I did last week for the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. Actually, it's the song before the song before the song I did last week. It's about that visit where the mean boyfriend came and visited the main character in the winter of 2001, and she wasn't very excited about it. Y'know, they went to this S…

This a song about a girl who takes her banjo to church, and then she proceeds to get stoned in said church. Is Father O'Malley going to see her smoking??????? Oh, my!!!

This is a song about tinnitus. The first couple seconds are me trying to replicate my actual tinnitus with pure tones. I actually did quite a good job, but find that it might be piercing to the listeners' ears, so I only had it there for that short span of time. Tinnitus is a pain in the butt,, but every once in a while, I find it entertaining. My …

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. I actually wrote this song back in 2001, which is the time period this part of the album is about. I figured I'd rehash it, cuz it goes with the rest o' the album and stuff, theme-wise. I added a new bridge and a nice li'l rap part to make it go with the rest of the album and stuff.…

This is a song about having possibly been visited by a UFO. It's not very good.

Yeah, I decided to try makin' that funny Grey's Anatomy song from a few days ago into the kind of song that I was singing about in the Grey's Anatomy funny song. It's about death; y'know, it's about worrying about where friends and stuff end up after they die.

Dang it all, I hate posting the same song twice, but I really wanted to soup this song from last night up a teeny tiny bit and revise the rap a teeny tiny bit. So, here's the souped up version of last night's song with extra goodies in it.

This is the the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. The mean boyfriend comes for a visit and the main character is not excited. Y'know, she's not excited, cuz she's made the realization that she's gotta eventually break up with him. In the meantime, a friend o' hers invites her and the mean boyfriend to a Super Bowl party. The wh…

This song is about how, whenever someone is about to die on Grey's Anatomy, there's almost always this sad, beautiful, poignant music that comes up. It's like, oh, I think this patient on the operating table is going to live! Then the sad, beautiful, poignant music comes up, and it's like, oops, they bled out. That's how I know somebody is going to…

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. It's more stuff about the girl procrastinating on the whole breakup thing. Or, maybe, rather than procrastinating, she's building up her strength, so she can be all ready for the breakup when it happens. Maybe it's that. She's tired of him. She's bored by him. And she's scared o' hi…

This is a souped-up version of last week's song. After a few listens, I realized it needed to be interesting-ed up, cuz, like, even though the vocals monotonously droning on the same thing over and over fits the theme of the song, it gets too boring too fast. Here's the newly interesting-ed up version. While the picture isn't directly related to th…

It's time for the yearly song with cats yelling in it cuz they were due for their little vet checkups. Here they are, yelling. A big rainstorm was starting, as I hit the road, complete with lotsa wind and everything. So, I figured, I'd make this little ditty about being all apprehensive about driving in the rain and wanting to make it home safely w…

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. There was a song I wrote back in 2001 that called "She'll Stay That Way for a While" and I sorta re-worked it. Well, I re-worked it a lot. It's hardly recognizable as bein' the song it was before. But, anyway, there was all that depresso-land-adventure-poopy-yucky-ness of the impend…

This song popped outta me on February 14th, but I only recorded the first part of it. Today, I recorded the second part of it. It's a song about, well, I guess, in general, it's a song about losing one's marbles. But the metaphor I use is that of me being a bus driver who finds herself driving on the wrong side o' the road. Ooooops!!!!!!! There're …

This is a song about that variety of depression where, rather than being down-in-the-dumps, per se, one feels all blank and empty and stuff. I dunno which sucks more, to be honest...bein' all down in the dumps and crying-ish, or being a blank blankness of void-y-ness. This is the kind of depression where you find yourself falling into a void, and y…

This is Song #10 in the Loosey Goosey Lucifer series. The people in the tiny church go outside to see what the source of the light is that's comin' in through the windows.. They see Loosey Goosey Lucifer, and she sees them, too. They all figure out they have the same deal...in other words, they all want to save the world. Because they all have the …

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. It's about how the girl, knowing she has to eventually break up with her boyfriend, gets all depressed. She decides to go back on Zoloft.

A song made entirely out of the buzzings of pretend-made-up insects.

Sorry for the repeat; I hate postin' the same song twice, but upon further listening to yesterday's song, I found that it had serious deficiencies that needed to be addressed. The ending didn't sound nearly churchy enough. I increased the churchy flavoredness, by adding a bit o' Casio-from-the-80s-keyboard-fake-organ-magic, along with some extra vo…

This is the next song in the Loosey Goosey Lucifer series. The people in the tiny church are singing, singing away, singing jolly hymns. Suddenly, they hear the buzzing of the fly outside - the fly is singing along with them!

This is the next song in the Fucked Up Relationship Album, Part 4. It's sort of a sequel to the song I did a few weeks ago about it bein' the Dark Blue Winter. The gal in the album has become fairly certain that she's going to have to break up with her boyfriend, and it's making her all depressed.

This is Song #7 of the Loosey Goosey Lucifer series. She follows the beam of light down to earth, and as she approaches the source of the light, she hears singing. She sees that the light and singing are both emanating from a tiny church, that very church that is in Song #3 of this series.