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What I Have Learned from my Mothers Life and My Mother's Death- Shulamis Rochel Bas Avraham Tzvi

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Today marks the 4th Yartzeit for my mother - Shulamis Roche Bas Avraham Tzvi.

I have written and spoken about her publicly many times, but today I just wanted to do an "accounting" about what I have learned since she died. Well, really, what I have learned from her. From her life and from her death.

Life is so short. It is so unpredictable. It doesn't follow the script. Never has and never will. When my mother got sick, I felt like I took a wrong turn. This wasn't suppose to happen to me or to her. Or to any of us for that matter. My 90 year old grandfather wasn't meant to watch his daughter die and be buried. My own children couldn't lose a grandparent, just like that. My single siblings - not having their mother anymore? If I were G-d, I know I wouldn't do that. But I am not G-d. I don't know the whole picture and after 4 years, it has become easier to accept that this is the reality. My mother did die. Life did go on. I think about her everyday. I try to make her proud. I try to create a legacy for her. I still grapple with parts of our relationship that we have not gotten to resolve.

I did hear a shuir a few weeks after my mother died, by Rabbi Kalish. My little brother Yedidya was in the Waterbury and we had the privilege of hearing Rabbi Kalish explain that after some ones died, that is when you can really build a relationship with them. It's hard to explain in words why that touched my soul so deeply. I didn't believe that at the time but I do believe that now.

For example- I am one of 9 kids. My mother gave birth 9 times. I so badly want to discuss with her my pregnancies, my babies, what's going on during that whole time. I can't actually discuss it with her. But I do sort of connect with her through it in my head. What I think she would think. What I think she may say. What I think may have happened to her. And I build on it from there. Or things that really upset me that she did as a kid. Now that I am raising kids, I feel this knot in my stomach- "ohhhhhh, that is why she did that, that is why she said that."

In a way- it makes me try to be closer to the people who are alive. It makes me bring up harder conversations that I know I won't always be able to have. So I do know through her death, she has taught me a lot about this one life we get to live.

Life is hard. It comes with all different challenges. So many we can't even anticipate. Yuntif can be so challenging. All the food. All the family. All the "suppose to be things." Like fancy clothing and shoes. Keeping up with other people.

But this time of year, always teaches me, on so many levels - what TRULY is important. Not how skinny I am. Not how much money I have. Not how fancy my clothing, my shoes, my yuntif table looks. Those are all means to an end.

Make your list of what is TRULY important to you - and always ask yourself - is this aligned with my TRUE values.

Thank you for being here and for listening. Please subscribe to the podcast. Leave a rating a review. And please do something in honor of my mother, Shulamis Rochel Bas Avraham Tzvi.

Wishing you all the most beautiful of Yomim Tovim :)

Check out my Intuitive Eating self paced course here: https://gila-glassberg-intuitive-nutrition.teachable.com/p/intuitive-eating/

Have a great day and thank you for being here!

If you are ready to make peace with food and never say diet again, check out my website www.gilaglassberg.com and apply for a free 20 minute clarity call.

I look forward to hearing from you! https://gilaglassberg.com/scheduling/ If you'd like to learn more about what I do, follow me on Instagram @gila.glassberg.intuitiveRD.

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İçerik Gila Glassberg tarafından sağlanmıştır. Bölümler, grafikler ve podcast açıklamaları dahil tüm podcast içeriği doğrudan Gila Glassberg veya podcast platform ortağı tarafından yüklenir ve sağlanır. Birinin telif hakkıyla korunan çalışmanızı izniniz olmadan kullandığını düşünüyorsanız burada https://tr.player.fm/legal özetlenen süreci takip edebilirsiniz.

Today marks the 4th Yartzeit for my mother - Shulamis Roche Bas Avraham Tzvi.

I have written and spoken about her publicly many times, but today I just wanted to do an "accounting" about what I have learned since she died. Well, really, what I have learned from her. From her life and from her death.

Life is so short. It is so unpredictable. It doesn't follow the script. Never has and never will. When my mother got sick, I felt like I took a wrong turn. This wasn't suppose to happen to me or to her. Or to any of us for that matter. My 90 year old grandfather wasn't meant to watch his daughter die and be buried. My own children couldn't lose a grandparent, just like that. My single siblings - not having their mother anymore? If I were G-d, I know I wouldn't do that. But I am not G-d. I don't know the whole picture and after 4 years, it has become easier to accept that this is the reality. My mother did die. Life did go on. I think about her everyday. I try to make her proud. I try to create a legacy for her. I still grapple with parts of our relationship that we have not gotten to resolve.

I did hear a shuir a few weeks after my mother died, by Rabbi Kalish. My little brother Yedidya was in the Waterbury and we had the privilege of hearing Rabbi Kalish explain that after some ones died, that is when you can really build a relationship with them. It's hard to explain in words why that touched my soul so deeply. I didn't believe that at the time but I do believe that now.

For example- I am one of 9 kids. My mother gave birth 9 times. I so badly want to discuss with her my pregnancies, my babies, what's going on during that whole time. I can't actually discuss it with her. But I do sort of connect with her through it in my head. What I think she would think. What I think she may say. What I think may have happened to her. And I build on it from there. Or things that really upset me that she did as a kid. Now that I am raising kids, I feel this knot in my stomach- "ohhhhhh, that is why she did that, that is why she said that."

In a way- it makes me try to be closer to the people who are alive. It makes me bring up harder conversations that I know I won't always be able to have. So I do know through her death, she has taught me a lot about this one life we get to live.

Life is hard. It comes with all different challenges. So many we can't even anticipate. Yuntif can be so challenging. All the food. All the family. All the "suppose to be things." Like fancy clothing and shoes. Keeping up with other people.

But this time of year, always teaches me, on so many levels - what TRULY is important. Not how skinny I am. Not how much money I have. Not how fancy my clothing, my shoes, my yuntif table looks. Those are all means to an end.

Make your list of what is TRULY important to you - and always ask yourself - is this aligned with my TRUE values.

Thank you for being here and for listening. Please subscribe to the podcast. Leave a rating a review. And please do something in honor of my mother, Shulamis Rochel Bas Avraham Tzvi.

Wishing you all the most beautiful of Yomim Tovim :)

Check out my Intuitive Eating self paced course here: https://gila-glassberg-intuitive-nutrition.teachable.com/p/intuitive-eating/

Have a great day and thank you for being here!

If you are ready to make peace with food and never say diet again, check out my website www.gilaglassberg.com and apply for a free 20 minute clarity call.

I look forward to hearing from you! https://gilaglassberg.com/scheduling/ If you'd like to learn more about what I do, follow me on Instagram @gila.glassberg.intuitiveRD.

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